Hey meowmeows! (=^x^=)
How are you guys?
Has life been treating you well? I hope it has been!
Well I'm back with a new blog post!。(⌒∇⌒。)
I'm sorry (not sorry) for this blog post.
If you don't want to read about me bragging about my boyfriend then you can just don't read about it. Off you go~ (shoo)
And yes this entire blog post would be dedicated to this wonderful man here who has been in my life for the past 4 months officially (6 months from the first day we met)
Hello babybear, HAPPY 4TH MONTH. ヾ(＠⌒ー⌒＠)ノ
Four whole months of sticking with me, standing beside me and holding my hand especially when I'm at my worst. 。：゜(；´∩｀；)゜：。
Thanks for always being here for me when I need you. (｡’▽’｡)♡
I'm not the easiest person to be around. I'm a cancer. Like everyone knows, in short cancer is a "moody bitch". And like that description, I lived by it 100%. My mood swings are here all the time, I throw tantrum at you, I am demanding and I annoy you as much as possible. And yet here you are, still standing pretty strong beside me holding my hand. What more could i ask for, I've already got the best boyfriend in town. ( ˘ ³˘)❤
Besides liking someone who constantly doubts herself (blames self for low self esteem) is probably the hardest ever and yet here you are reassuring me as and when (usually all the time) I feel like I'm not good enough. (´ ▽｀).。ｏ♡
- When I think I'm the ugliest girl ever, you make me feel beautiful. And I really feel beautiful. Like genuinely feel beautiful from the inside out. Totally different feeling when my friends compliments me and I have to force myself to thank them for saying that though I don't agree (sorry I really do appreciate just that... my self esteem...).
- I usually feel the most self conscious when I have no make up on (or minimal) and I'm out alone or with friends. My self esteem can go from low to non existent at this point of time. But whenever I'm with you without any make up on (or minimal), you still make me feel like I've nothing to be ashamed about. You actually make me feel comfortable in my own skin. Although I know you prefer me with make up (my stupid stupid face with all those blemishes), you are still totally fine with me being lazy and not wanting to put on make up cause I'm too comfortable with you.
- I get jealous all the time. And this comes from me having such low self esteem. I trust you, but I don't trust me being enough for you. And I hate myself for needing you to reassure me that I'm the girl for you. You always know the right words to say to me when I needed to hear them. And they are not cheesy lines but genuinely how you feel and I love that about you. I don't know how you are still here right beside me even though I behave this way.
- I constantly asked you if you are bored of me. And I'm sorry I do that almost every time we go on a date. It's just that I feel so comfortable around you that I actually am who I really am in front of you. And I'm afraid the real me is a bore to you. But you never complained one bit because you like me for who I am and you just like hanging out with me even if we ain't doing anything (and this I really appreciate you for)
(*´ ˘ `*).｡oO ( ♡ )
Like I said before, I'm really comfortable around you. To the point where I act like how I act in front of my parents when I'm with you. I act like a demanding brat, a bitch and yet here you are. Still standing here right beside me. I don't know why tho... (／(ｴ)＼) Why you like this low self esteem demanding girl. You never ever once asked me to change to be someone I'm not but I want to change, for the better, to be more patient, to have a better temper, to be less moody, to be more understanding. I know you said to me that I'm already good enough (or in your words perfect for you) but I know I'm not, not even close. I wish I was better for you baby. (๑•́₋•̩̥̀๑)
I also want to apologise for the times when I couldn't control my temper. The times when I just could not put myself in your shoes. I'm so sorry baby. I hope you know that. ༼ ༎ຶ ෴ ༎ຶ༽
Babybear, I want you to know that I'm also here for you ok. If you have any problems, anything, I want to be someone who you will share it with. I want to be there for you like how you've always been here for me. Please? （○゜ε＾○）
Once again, I don't know how I am able to call such a wonderful and perfect man "mine" and I'm willing to go to the ends of the earth with you as long as you hold my hand and never let go.
You know I love you.
ෆ⃛(ٛ⌯ॢ˃ ɪ ˂ٛ⌯ॢ)
So yeah, sorry guys if this post is boring.
Stay tuned (idk) for more updates in this space!
Remember to be kind and love one another!